Ziggy
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We had a certain connection. I saw things in her that i could see lasting a life time. Things we could learn off of eachother. You could say in some aspects she was my complete opposite but it worked like that (well did...). There was no doubt in my mind that she was the one and i know it seems far fetched, especially at 18 to say that but i did have a realistic view on it and i wasn't going to propose to her anytime yet or in the near future. I just thought she was...Now that i think of what we could of had it infuriates me more and all the memories can do is drag me down further.Women do this when they break up with you. It's this mechanism they subconsciously employ because they aren't used to the lack of attention from their ex-boyfriends. I had it done, non-stop, for like 12 months, and eventually I learned that revenge is a dish best served cold. You might want her back, but no matter how hard she tries to get your attention you've got to be emotionless toward her...she'll freak twice as hard, and you'll get some dignity back.
As you said, all you can hope for right now is that she goes through complete hell without you...trust me when I say that she is. You don't come out of a two-year relationship feeling no remorse or sadness, which is also why she may have turned to this other guy...to try replicate something you two had. Small comfort, I know, but it's most probably true.
I have to ask though, and this is simply for my personal interest because I remember going through identical experiences in the weeks and months after my long-term relationship break-up...why do you think you'd take her back in a heartbeat? Really think about this, and it may help clear things up in your head. Is it something the does or says, or the way she looks at you? Or just her general aura? Or something else altogether?
As i've said before, let yourself grieve, and then learn and grow from this shit...you'll be so much better off for it.
Im just sick to death of her telling me she still loves me but removing me from her life and telling me she doesn't want to be in a relationship. I hold those 3 words in high regards and they seem to mean alot more to me than other people (especially her it seems..). She'll just throw those words around at me as if it were almost nothing as if she hadn't even though of what she was saying. You know like get f^&*ed.
I've never in my life seen such a selfish act or met such a selfish person.